Felino A. Soriano- Three Poems

a selection from Configuring Recollections

from XI – XX

need, unneeded­

finding reciprocating devotion

was a pluralized failure of      architectural      stimulation

a gathering would exist

in the shortened paradox

of elated → misery

choice

|partitioned|

missed calibrations

^overwhelmed

fractioned

                this physical sting                            the singing of its prose

chorus of reflectional echoes

finding

           need,

unneeded     tributary silence

each angled

                    devotion a

spiraled dialectic

engaging voices that already blended into the leaving notion of determined

escape

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

High School

freshman

to believe 9^th

grade an

             avalanche

                             of days since kindergarten’s teaching

space, color—

my default mood was of

alphabetic nausea

as my walk, small                      my creative interpretation

not yet formed                           my language /of what following

                                                                       considered occupational worth\

—the body, paused in the endomorph

rendition of childhood era

my desire to conform was a desire to interact with those outside of my paradigmatic

culture of deliberate                                       alone                       ness

 

sophomore

June|between|September

a             

transformed ideology

transitioned corporeal eyes

toward an introverted desire to

interact with translated reaction;

a prophecy of determined

responses: my body’s

change

slimmed

pertinent

to more so

than health’s revised need, a

template of discovered energy

elasticized—

what is confidence

but an isolated experiment

with adrenaline’s focal

determination?—

much learning, this year:

driving

dating

deliberate understanding

collaborating

conditioning

etc.,

what is learning

but the exterior dimension

aggregating into

architectural newness of

developing disposition—

junior

my tongue, still developing.  breaths,

added resonance.  learning, language,

rendering love.  altered appearance

my style, becoming peripheral.  academic

fulfillment, reflectional elation.  when I

say listen I mean my presentation is

distant from the mythos of two years prior.

senior

Acclimation.  Full-body.  an

entirety

            of memory

holds each of my devotions, steers, struggles

the whereabouts of completion are in the pivoting

nuance of my searing for

                                             eventuality—

there was music and loss (of rhythms devoted to elated camaraderie)

devoted to shaping a sealed sadness; My bedroom, a

devoted emblem.  Silence saw me.  Developed

wings, broken.  Watching against my watching. Tonal

surprises, radial speech.  What followed me

behaved in me.  Tongues to the outside

converted gifts. 

                          contextual

                          rehab

sustained gregarious habits

becoming into the eventual                                         certainty

of graduating among

trivia

upon losing

my compassion . . . injured

though its skeleton

is searchable, though

ready to abscond—

each crow in my tongue is a dwindling

meander

meaning hasn’t hands and

my voice is believable

in the fiction of beneficial

friendships—

someone has left and the name

is always didactic                     Felino, never wait

and why rain is best

is a paradox of enjoying

injury most when no sound

heals the darkened

mood without first a

scathe

igniting into warning and physical

__________, . . .

Felino A. Soriano is a poet documenting coöccurrences.  His poetic language stems from exterior motivation of jazz music and the belief in language’s unconstrained devotion to broaden understanding.  His work has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net anthologies.  Recent poetry collections include Forms, migrating, Of isolated limning, Mathematics, Espials, watching what invents perception, and Of these voices. He edits the online journal, Of/with: journal of immanent renditions. He lives in California with his wife and family and is a director of supported living and independent living programs providing supports to adults with developmental disabilities.  Visit felinoasoriano.info for more information.