Last
Cigarette
It wasn't like
him
to panic, he'd
done
a front line tour
of
combat duty in
the NAM so
when
any serious shit
came
down he just took
it
in stride including
all
the heart attack
symptoms, said to
himself,
"Remain calm,
your
having the Big
One.
Get someone to
drive
you over to ER,
no
sweat, just hit
automatic
dial and get
moving."
but no one's
home
he can call and he'll
be
damned if he's
calling
an ambulance to
travel
three blocks, "You
know
what one of those
suckers
cost? not thinking at
the time, "What
difference
would it make if he were
dead, how much will that
cost?"
though it did occur,
later,
when they started
asking
questions like, "What
did
you do after no
one
answered your
calls?"
"Well, hell, I lit a
cigarette,
took a deep drag to
settle
my nerves and
started
looking for my car
keys
so I could drive
myself
over here." Which
wasn't
a fatal move, they said
but
couldn't figure out
right
away exactly why
not.
New Beats Make
the scene, no longer bar
hopping
low rent basement dives
hooked up to serve wine
& beer, converted from
deli
to candles in a Chianti
bottles
dark dive, unheated in winter,
no AC in summer just open
windows,
overhead fans, enough for
these
MFA program grads
slumming,
clubbing, downing designer
beers
& faux drinks, taste
testing the
white wines and the
blush,
aperitif experts, put it on the
card,
"Do you mind not
smoking?
It hurts my
eyes.
Besides its the Law now, not
to.
Let's do a
non-metrical
line
instead."
New Beats
Face
many
hardships
in this
life:
a tough
round
of golf,
having to
buy
a round of
drinks for
everyone in
the
clubhouse
after hole
in one,
not being
able to
write
any of the
drinks
off as a
legit
business
expense.
Took a sick
day to
squeeze
in 18.
Have to lay
out mucho
dinero to
make
DWI go away
after the
hole
in one
party.
Not
remembering
anything
after
the third
martini
shaken not
stirred
asshole.
The only
written
work from
whole
experience
on
credit card
slips
club
vouchers
check registers
An accelerated Beat in a mirror of unique character
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