Raineway- Three Poems

 

FEAR

 

Afraid

 

A fear you started. 

The fear that loves you

That fear that hates you

The fear of being confused

 

A fear junkies possess. 

The fear that stains clothes,

That fear that creates alcoholics

The stinking fear with a bad taste

 

A fear adapted from the devil himself. 

The fear of a mad man

That fear so loud no one can hear it. 

The fear that will silence the world

 

And darkness will fall at your command. 

Darkness so thick we choke with shame. 

A darkness so dense it goes beyond nothingness.

 

A fear you wake-up with,

The fear that keeps runaways running. 

That same fear you wash my face with,

The fear that soaps up the body,

 

A fear of the unknown

The fear you talk with,

That fear you smile with,

The fear that starts bloody wars

 

A cursed fear you’re too afraid to cry about,

The fear that monsters create

That same fear I spread my legs to you with. 

The fear I pray about

 

A darkness you feel and see-then you don’t see. 

A darkness which one cannot break free

A darkness that promotes

 

Fear

GO, I SCREAMED

 

Motionless was the night-nice, cool.

So nice it would cause one to drool

Out on the balcony there were jokes

The man, my brother no other folks

The talk was evil and some good

I listened though, thought I should

In the privacy of his nest

There was an uninvited guest

Aimed at the eyeball of the man

Was someone who was not a fan

A shot was fired the man fell

About to break loose was all hell

Bless his heart, my brother was wet

 “We need not also pay his debt”

“Go,” I screamed.

Outside was the night-awaken

The people had been forsaken

Rumors started, lies were called out

Where was my brother, was he about?

My brother shot him they had said

So we ran-away we had fled

The man, a neighborhood gangster

The man, was quite a prankster

Was beloved everywhere he stood

Providing the people with some good

A park without drugs was held dear

Abusive men would disappear

The homeless had warmth and food

The man was never misconstrued

A killer by soul from the start

Deep inside a good man at heart

“Go,” I screamed

Where did the shot come from I text?

Where was the shooter, are we next?

In the car but we just sat there

Take me please, take me anywhere.

Fires had started stores were robbed

My head hurt and my heart throbbed

The police arrived with much disdain

While angry people went insane

We drove finally, lights off, crazed

People everywhere, the street a blazed

A large man approached our car

We hadn’t even gone that far

He recognized something in us

Staring at us with much disgust

“Go,” I screamed

A gun was raised by the mean man

The sound shouted and people ran

My head was pinned on the floorboard

I prayed out loud, “Oh my Lord”

With a gun placed in my hand

I shot in the face the mean man

In the shoulder my brother was shot

The mean old man, we knew him not

I took a life, oh my soul

I will not live to grow old

To hell I’ll go through self-defense

I will not stay for the pretense

“Go,” I screamed

The car hollered-we ran the light

My brother yelling in the night

I didn’t feel and couldn’t tell

I didn’t move and couldn’t smell

I took a life could see his face

Ugly, pudgy man on our case

More than life I loved my brother

More than life unlike no other

We must go to a drug store

To treat this wound to the core

Then we will go to a hotel

Let us arrive there without fail

The shoulder was prayed over, cleaned

More blood then one has ever seen

It was saying when the news broke

The child is gone this was no joke

I ran to the car and in the back

There was the child that is a fact

The pudgy man wanted the child

Aimed the gun the bullet went wild

The gangster shot by pudgy man

To kill his child if he can

Until these things have no sound

To the room and lie down. 

“Go,” I whispered

CHARLENE

 

The curiosity of your behavior

Made you quite a strange neighbor.

The lies, to you, were the truth.

And I was somewhat of a goof.

But somehow it kept us well

In a village where anger swelled

We grew together-

You quicker than me

And over the years

We not always agree.

The events that happened saw us through

It also saw something stirring in you.

Something was killing you from within

And I could not stop it, my friend.

Wrecked when I saw you in my dream

Yelling for you.  Did you hear my scream?

Screaming for you to be aloof

Knowing they couldn’t provide proof

For what we already knew was true.

Life was no longer a part of you.