Scott Thomas Outlar- Two Poems

Shattered Moments

  

Numb stoned silence of paradise –

everything gray and perfect and peaceful,

no worries, no confusion, no need

for anything other than the entropic void.

Under the Buddha Tree in Eden’s Garden

earning a double dose of mythological ramifications

straight from the archetypal source

into my well weathered consciousness –

some might call it a soul,

but it’s all wavelength frequencies

of embedded DNA data points in the form of vibrations

humming across the electrical tendrils

of a synchronized, interconnected web of infinite light.

The spiritual physics of the matter

explain the manifest totality of the illusion.

A revelation, an epiphany, an A-ha moment

gets shredded by an unkind angle of perception

as my peripheral vision catches movement

from outside the holy triangulated circle –

I see color pulsing inward,

I see Order breaking down,

I see Chaos gearing up for the next war,

I see gene swarm in the primordial soup,

I see fire raging from the underbelly,

I see storms flowing from wasted skyline,

I see dog eat dog in the cage fight,

I see evolution pressing forward at all coasts,

I feel the intensity of pressure mounting…

and then my dream is shattered

as the shutters of reality are released –

the poison of the Beast World

floods my synapses and veins,

polluting the core of what I thought possible

and slamming me with a hard dose of reality.

There is no escape from the biting lashes

of truth’s harsh winds –

we came from the dirt, the ash, the mud,

the clay…we are created from out

this firmament…and so, too, shall

we stay here, live here, die here –

from the cradle of the crescent river

to the yawning grave where the worms wait –

all that was, is, or ever will be.

 - Originally appeared in Novelmasters

Seeking (in Vain) for the Answer

  

Is it the guns?

If so, there will always

still be knives.

Is it the “holy” texts?

If so, there will always

still be misguided interpretations of God.

Is it the consequences of Imperialism?

If so, there will always

still be control freaks and strange laws.

Is it the effects of human tribalism?

Is it the results of ancient conflicts?

Is it the strings pulled by corrupt regimes?

Is it the money funneled by war profiteers?

Is it the celebratory spotlight shined by mass media?

Is it the blueprints orchestrated

by divide-and-conquer conspirators?

Is it nature?

Is it nurture?

Is it a product of original sin?

Is it ideology taught by man?

Is it lone wolves?

Is it organized terror campaigns?

Is it part of a divine plan?

Is it hell being manifested upon the earth?

Is there a path out of the madness at this point?

Is there ever going to come a cessation of the suffering?

- Originally appeared in Dissident Voice

Bio:

Scott Thomas Outlar hosts the site 17Numa.wordpress.com where links to his published work can be found. His chapbook "Songs of a Dissident" is forthcoming in January of 2016 through Transcendent Zero Press.